One Step Closer

We are one step closer to our daughter.  Yesterday the birthmom, G, had an ultrasound and everything looks good AND they were able to confirm that the baby is a GIRL!!!  Her due date is August 7th....WOW, that is sooner than we thought.  My sister-in-law, aka Angel, talked with G and although yesterday was a hard day for G (her first time seeing the baby) she said that she thinks an adoption plan is best for the baby.  It is hard to be excited when I know G is hurting.  She's so young and sweet and I have really grown to care about her.  The GREAT news is it sounds like G and her parents are more interested in an open adoption which we truly believe is best for everyone.  Initially they were in shock and just wanted the situation to go away, so it didn't seem like they wanted any contact with the baby, but now they are adjusting and softening and that is great.

The social worker (who I adore) meets with G today and will have a lot more information.  I am also hoping that G wants to talk to us and if she does than I am looking forward to calling her tomorrow.

I have moments of overwhelming joy and peace.  The personal growth I have been through, and am still going through, with this journey is amazing and I almost can't think about it or I will crumble into a pile on the floor.  It is all so much and yet exactly right.  I don't know how excited to be.  I know that G could change her mind or the bio father could say he wants custody (which is unlikely, but you never know).  So, can I be excited now, or do I need to wait until we are holding our baby girl and G has signed the paperwork?  This whole process is so different than international adoption and I don't feel prepared.  I want to go buy a couple girlie outfits, but I am cautious.  I know if G decides to raise the baby then that is her right and I will honor that, but it will be hard to let go.  Any advice is appreciated.

This Week

Hopefully we will get some answers this week.  The birthmom has her ultrasound on Tuesday and she called the social worker and set up an appointment for Wednesday.  I think this coming week will bring us a lot of answers.  I just need to try to keep breathing in and breathing out...

Phone Call

I talked to the social worker today and she is going to call the Birthmom today or tomorrow to set up a time to meet with her.  I found out that with an independent (domestic) adoption the Birthmom has to have information about the adopting family so that she can actually "choose" the family, which we are fine with, I just hope it doesn't overwhelm the young birthmom.  I am really happy that the social worker is calling the birthmom directly and that the birthmom's parents agreed to that.  I think the social worker is wonderful and will really be able to help the birthmom work through her emotions.  I am hoping to hear this weekend how the talk or meeting goes with the birthmom.  Please say some prayers and/or send some good energy for the meeting to go well.

Thanks!!

Who Me?

Today is just one of those days that I NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!  But, I don't have a crystal ball and I just have to wait and let things unfold and I just need to vent that today I don't like it!  The birthmom's ultrasound in next Tuesday and I think we will hear something after that (hopefully).  I just need to know...

Roller Coaster

Aaaaaand We're Back....

So, I just heard from my sister-in-law (man, I love that girl) and the domestic birth family called her and asked for the social worker's phone number to set up an appointment.  So, I guess they are still interested in making an adoption plan.  She also said that the family is doing better, not in crisis as much, so that's good.  I am still saying, "We will see" as nothing is final until it's final :) 

Disappear

Well, it looks like the domestic adoption is not going to happen.  The birthfamily has kind of disappeared, well not entirely, but they have greatly reduced communication with my sister in law and they are not talking about the adoption anymore.  There is still a chance that they will call in a few weeks and be interested in making an adoption plan and we will have to decide what the best decision is for our family.  I am a little disappointed because I did start to fantasize about a newborn baby girl, but on the other hand I was also freaking out about all that comes with a newborn.  One of my friends said, "you know it always seems that in the situations that are not meant to be you find yourself trying too hard to make it be," and I think that is exactly what I was doing.  

I am excited to be back on our Ethiopia adoption path because my heart still had a foot, a big foot, over the line and into Ethiopia :)  We are taking it somewhat slow so that we can continue to save the money needed to complete the process, but I know we will get there.  Another one of my friends (man I have smart friends) said, "At the end of all this your precious daughter that is meant to be in your family will be in your arms." Kind of makes my arms ache :)

Heavy Heart

Today I heard some difficult news and my heart hearts.  The birthfamily that we are connected too is really struggling.  We are hoping they call the social worker ASAP to get help for their family.  We are also hoping that if we are blessed with a baby girl from this family that we can help her understand, forgive and love her birthfamily.  I know we have the strength to get through this, I just hope we can do a good job!!